elainegrey

Monday night i did not get to my desk, leaving the tasks i had planned, hoped to do (getting hundreds of dollars back from the flex health plan, correspondence) undone. I did a small grocery run, but was criticizing myself for not using my energy to get to the tasks.( Read more... )Last night i felt so tired, as i have been feeling in the evening, and i tried to connect with the idea that, "Yes, it was nice to be feeling so energetic for a few days, but it's OK to acknowledge the tide has turned and you feel tired again."

I haven't exercised in ages (since the treadmill at the hotel in Ohio), and that's probably part of the issue.

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I have reframed the Flaky Guy's visit successfully in my mind, gratified by how many of his Ohio colleagues have said, "He's doing what?!" Christine and a few colleagues questioned whether there was an ulterior motive to his "somethings are better face-to-face" excuse. While it was easy to roll my eyes at the "Who is getting laid off?" worries and dismiss them as unfounded paranoia, i remembered five or more years ago when my boss gave me a heads up that i was going to be reorganized into managing the operations group.

Could there be some job change in the wind? The agreement from our Product person that this would be a Good Thing seemed oddly empty of the details. My boss said a significant reorg (moving me and my team to a different division) would be a discussion at a different level. But if Flaky Guy wanted to offer me a different role, poach me from my current position? I'm also reminded of how i practiced years ago, the , "I'll need time to think about that," response. Other than the slight anxiety of at how such behavior would play out in the politics of this organization, i do have some thoughts about how useful it would be to have a chance to have some good talks with him, while not getting my hopes up that such will occur.

I have therapy scheduled for that following Wednesday. Yay.

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I had lunch out with several colleagues yesterday, as few of us are in the office, and the virtual absence of the folks who would be virtually present seemed tangible to me. It was pleasant and completely social. Perhaps it was even more pleasant in that it was completely social with talk of cars (and tickets, and buying new ones, and our first accidents in response to one colleague's daughter's accident) and other things, and no work whining. Today i'll have lunch with my boss, Thursday i'll have lunch with one of my long-time lunching colleague friends. Maybe Christine will come up for that Thursday lunch.