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I feel like i've been taunting Christine with a meal out all weekend. "Let's eat out tonight," i'd say, but then we'd be at different stages of needing to eat or different stages of projects. It was easier to eat at home. Tonight we will dine out, perhaps, since we haven't planned our menu for the week.
In one of the not-meals, mid afternoon yesterday, we drove off and collected a fast food bite for Christine, returned at sat by the pool. We'd probably hit the high of 75°F for the day, the sky was blue, and there was a gentle breeze ruffling the pool surface. Edward came over and talked to us, collected affection and belly rubs, settled near my feet, then was back off prowling about.
In the afternoon, after Meeting for Business, not only did i get the "must have" work done for the meetings today, but i played with loose bits of embroidery floss and crocheted a little mess, experimenting with plying colors together. I got in an evening ride on the bike on the trainer, reading a SF short story about a rescue from a star liner inspired by a ferry disaster in NY in the late 1800s.
I am a little preoccupied with my mental health: yesterday i had a drink with alcohol before getting work done. I think the relaxation helped me "just do it" instead of poking at Perfection and getting it "right." I've felt present this weekend, and it's hard to know whether that's the release of the stress building up to release planning, or if it's the prozac. I don't need to decide now whether i'm staying on it forever, and, if i decide i need to stay on it, i can see if some of the more recent drugs don't have the side effects of which i'm least fond. I suppose it's that i'm on the prozac that i can hold the sense of an all or nothing decision at bay.
I used the oil treatment on my scalp last night. New areas of distressed scalp had started up over the past weeks. The stress, yes, i'm sure. I am thankful for the health care i have, and where it's not comprehensive, that i can afford to cover our other needs.
The sun is rising here. Over towards the bay are low gloomy clouds, but to the southeast there's clearing with high clouds going through all the colors of a ripe peach, golden yellows and the deep blush red, while low clouds contrast in dusky purples. The sky is a pale blue green tint, and now the gloomy grey clouds burst into rosy golds and purples for a few moments.
Good day to you all!
In one of the not-meals, mid afternoon yesterday, we drove off and collected a fast food bite for Christine, returned at sat by the pool. We'd probably hit the high of 75°F for the day, the sky was blue, and there was a gentle breeze ruffling the pool surface. Edward came over and talked to us, collected affection and belly rubs, settled near my feet, then was back off prowling about.
In the afternoon, after Meeting for Business, not only did i get the "must have" work done for the meetings today, but i played with loose bits of embroidery floss and crocheted a little mess, experimenting with plying colors together. I got in an evening ride on the bike on the trainer, reading a SF short story about a rescue from a star liner inspired by a ferry disaster in NY in the late 1800s.
I am a little preoccupied with my mental health: yesterday i had a drink with alcohol before getting work done. I think the relaxation helped me "just do it" instead of poking at Perfection and getting it "right." I've felt present this weekend, and it's hard to know whether that's the release of the stress building up to release planning, or if it's the prozac. I don't need to decide now whether i'm staying on it forever, and, if i decide i need to stay on it, i can see if some of the more recent drugs don't have the side effects of which i'm least fond. I suppose it's that i'm on the prozac that i can hold the sense of an all or nothing decision at bay.
I used the oil treatment on my scalp last night. New areas of distressed scalp had started up over the past weeks. The stress, yes, i'm sure. I am thankful for the health care i have, and where it's not comprehensive, that i can afford to cover our other needs.
The sun is rising here. Over towards the bay are low gloomy clouds, but to the southeast there's clearing with high clouds going through all the colors of a ripe peach, golden yellows and the deep blush red, while low clouds contrast in dusky purples. The sky is a pale blue green tint, and now the gloomy grey clouds burst into rosy golds and purples for a few moments.
Good day to you all!
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